i kept thinking.
thinking. thinking. thinking.
thinking what would happen.
thinking what would happen to us.
what would happen to us if we suddenly BOOM!
and disappear.

where will we be?
in heaven?
in mars?
in outer-space?

i really really wonder.

BOMP! i landed on a hard surface.
i stood up. rubbed my eyes and started looking everywhere.
where was i?
i trembled in fear.
i felt that i was like in a dark box.
everywhere was dark.
i felt as though walls were falling on me.
i heard sounds.
people stomping. people clapping.
but where?!
i shook my head in fear.
i hear sounds but see no one.
i knelt down and started crying.
why was this happening?
its just like a nightmare!
i just sat there and wondered what was going to happen next.

---

looking out from my window.
looking at the deep blue sea.
how i wonder why.
why must you do this?
you stole my heart and tore it into pieces.
although you tried to wipe my tears away.
i rejected your hand.
suddenly
i saw a rainbow
guess. after a storm
there will be happy endings.
but the scar still remains.
never to be erased.

---

what am i doing.
why am i walking.

what am i looking at.
why am i listening.

what. why.
why. what.

oh. i am confusing.

and now
look out of the window.
forget everything.

the blue sky
the golden sun
the green meadows
and the colourful flower

oh such a lovely scene.




-windows. ta`x)

i stumbled upon my own mistake.
i should have known better than anything else.
what i should n shouldnt have.


im now exhausted in the long run.
have been d r a i n e d.
and am nothing left.



am i real at all? i question.
ta`x)

arghHh! everything could be just so fine todae.
nomad rehearsal n all. what else can i say but disgusting. did nothing at all n everything bcame worse with mei fong's 'aka' FE-FLAB presence!
[fe-flab stands for flabby with mei fong's style of f language]
she acts bossy n all when drama n lds havent even merged! bossing us around lyk doggs! i dun wan to merge!


one of the pics david took. shows her flabs =x


way disgusting food kaes...its lyk ill treatin us! the onli thing there was in a pkt of white rice!

ahHhs! nothing is nice now. no veron no life! it was one of the thingy we came up when we saw the so-called graffiti with the words "no music no life"


hmmms...prays tmr i wont feel lyk shit n all!


i love m&ms!
something which could actualli make me feel nice =x


ta`x)

how do you prove that we exist.
maybe we dont exist at all.
who knows?


thought provoking? sure is to me.
saw this on the cover pg of qi yong's file n i kinda liked it. somehow it just has this meanin to it.

ta`x)


i exist. or do i not?

carb = carbohydrates

ahHh! i can feel it! invading n all! fattening in process
breakfast at cafe cartel...n i saw mr tan wah kiat n mrs tan ann nie! rawks...saw quite some amksians also todae...dinner time at spagadies [paragon] saw mrs chung n her hubbie! but she was sitting quite far from me so didnt go over to say hi to her...btw dinner was full of carb! first there was this chicken salad [its so nice] den i had this pasta but didnt manage to finish it...desert! o m g. i loved it so much! it was heavenly. had the italian chocolate cake with vanilla ice-cream n hot fudge. so totally love it.
see why im growing fat?! need to stop myself from eating n all! -exercise-

tuition in the afternn...n the best thing is i didnt slp! yeahhs! todae was an extended 1/2hr session cause my tutor was makin it up for last wk...practically doze off cause i was way tiredd last weekend...


ta`x) -fruit basket comics is nice.

heys...im super tiredd.
-dead.
pigGin is nice! gonna pigg throughout the wkend cause nxt wk is a long wk!
nomad. *sighs*


SOMEONE is the sweetest person ever! yeahhs.
the soon to be m18 . always loving to suan me
sweet people are nice people!
*points to me*


lol...gonna slp`x)

ahHhs! great! history n chem txbk missin at the same time. wth`its not at hm neither is it anywhere in sch. cant rmb exactly where i last left it. either it went MISSING jux lyk dat or some idiots TOOK it.
fcuk.


godd. btw charmed rawks n it gets better each wk! total charmed fReak! the halliwell sisters n all...so coOl~
dcided. gonna haf to study! maths test this fri. n ohh no...there's nomad rehearsal tmr! the worst thing ever to do to actualli waste my time lyk dat when there is a test coming up!
*dream albert einstein~*



ta`x)

badd badd day.

first. worst assembly in my life! try gettin diulian infront of the whole sch.
n ppl jux come suan'in u [stuupid eugene! maths lesson kept showin n sayin the students creed thingy. shit him!]
second. totally am gonna flunk chem test. studied until i fell aslp last nite so it meant i didnt complete studyin.
third. try fallin down the steps landing on ur bums. ouchH!

hais...rid me of badd luck`suayy.


tell me what to do! arghHh! - l e a v e me


ta`since chem test...so did feel that i nid to study! ahHhs!
__me*

s h u t me away. please do.

cip was so so. went to causeway point n we were slpy n all. didnt collect much though.


gonna study for chem test now. cant afford any slackin.
studdy . stuudy . studyy

im sorRiex.
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heys! so here i am again...lyk so tiredd...but still dcided to do some bloggin cause there's jux some pics i haf to post! rawks! had the first nomad rehearsal jux now...managed to get some diulian pics...all v blur one due to poor quality of the hp camera...ohh well...its still is nice to haf some diulian pics...
btw. nomad not nice at all. at least todae's rehearsal wat abit uRhmms. the walking around n all. of course hopefully it will b ok by the real day...gonna haf lots n lots of rehearsals!


veron!


we so thought it was this boy brigade thingy...but godd~ its tcs! with super short pants some more! exact replica of kenneth 'aka' billy bong!


jasmine acting chmel! but dat guy bhind is jeromiah btw...super bigg tummy n act!


I LOVE QOO! btw...doesnt this pic reminds u of one of the diulian doreen pics?


liang yi 'aka' lydia lum! kinda a drama sec3 thingy =p


mauRice gRandadDy!

ohh well...will put up more pics though...got one super diulian one of erinna n david...but im dont haf it n even if i do put it will...will b dead for sure! =x love it!
tmr havin cip...n the thing is 3/5 seperated from all other cls [as in sec3 express] so cant realli go wif spectrum or maths slackers...aww~ pray i wont meet u g l y. singaporeans tmr!
gonna slp! havin serious case of dark circles now! ahHh! i wan a holiday where i can slp the whole day...dat would b so nice! nitEx`

heys...tiredd~ heavy drak circles forming round my eyes btw...i nid a holi where i can slp the whole day! yeahhs!

nomad 'o5 is comin up n drama is doin watever induction thingy...so rehearsals n rehearsals comin up...late into the nite btw...hais...
had 'o' level oral todae btw! o m g the examiner is one china lady n one singaporean man who lives near my hse n i see him on the bus almost every morn! oral wasnt nice at all...passage was okie...but the news topic n daily con is godd~ killer man! nvm..its over...tmr havin listenin...im sittin in front btw...imagine the radio blasting into my ears! =x

hmms...guess im gonna go do my biO~ life as a lymphocyte! yeahhs! rawks~
my life is completely messed up right now...


ta`x)

heys...officially stepped up to being the vice-president of the student council board 'o5/'o6 jux last friday [8th july] yupp...it was the 5th student council investiture...the step down of the senior councillors n the appoinment of the new ones...it was the same few procedures...speech by the principal which tan chee siong added a story in...givin out of tokens n certificates...speech by ex president soon heng n soon to be president mei yan..ahnding over...performance n tea reception...it has been lyk dat for lyk yrs n also many sch...but there was this video made by thiam wei n hmms...its entertaining [wif lots of my diulian pics inside...will try to put the video in my blog.hahas] but seein it jux makes me think back on lots of council times n its kinda sadd =x no one cried though...soon heng claims there jux wasnt the atmosphere there to cry...but joanne did...
last nite...had this council outing...went to marina bay for steamboat...there was eileen . yi le . audrey . vanessa . kuangyong aurina . hansen . mei yan . jonathan . jason . maurice . yuru . kwee gek . gary . thiam wei . jialing . randy . hanzong . ms ng . shumin . wenyao . soon heng . me [cant rmb who else though =x] went to the arcade first cause it was still early...didnt play much...the guys n some gals took the whole row of daytona...godd...han sen n maurice were abit crazeE...finally it was time to eat...me . yuru . kwee gek . ms ng . gary . thiam wei . maurice shared one of those thingy =x the guys were in charge of takin the food n we gals the cooks! kinda funn eatin together n hanging out lyk dat..seriously is..esp when we all got so crazee...the nxt table bside us were singing a bdae song for one of the person n we kinda jux joined in n sang for them...n we did a yum seng thingy wif our soups! how could we miss out on photos! hahas...btw we did the 0 - 11 pose thingy [wen yao was the xtra one for 11] lol..will post them once i get hold of the pics...aww~ sweet...
left dat place arnd 11pm n the way hm wasnt nice at all...once again my dad slammed my phone...rmb the time durin v dae last yr...me n my bro were at mich y. hse...hais...its still the same...

ohh well...will be havin a farewell thingy for the councillors i think? or is it not? im not sure...but gonna miss them lOts! boOhoO! =[


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heys! veri veri tiredd right now! goddx~
hmwk . investiture . lunchtime performance

oOh well...went to my grandma hse on sunday...as usual i sat down there with nutin but the tele to accompany me [i speak no dialect except for super lil canto btw] super difficulty speakin with my grandma =x aniwae...my uncle took out his albums n all...n we jux flipped thru it until i found super young diulian pic of me n my two bro...we used to come to singapore n stay with our grandma durin our holi when we were still stayin in kl...though i dun rmb takin any of such pics but its kinda funn jux lookin at it!




me n my two bro chi kit [wilson] n chi hoe! woO!

the young me.
round-faced.
mushroom head.

say its cuteE! =x DIULIAN PICS RAWKS!
the days where me n my 2 bro would jux laugh n play =[
miss those times! now im down here in singapore. alone.
oOh well...btw all the pose was actualli my uncle's idea =x


hmms...blog till here then...gonna haf an early nite tonite! long long day tmr...
chinese 'o' level oral nxt thurs btw...goddx~
my chinese! ahHh!

woO! tmr is youth day! sch holi! yeahhs! im so glad im still young =p
gonna be a good gal n stay hm tmr...may decided to go to the library though!
act guai rawks


btw...saw mrs lai todae at united square jux when i was leavin after lunch...she didnt see me but i jux called out to her! godDx~

got this email bout this petition thingy of the 35min vs. 45min period! go do it:
http://www.petitiononline.com/mod_perl/signed.cgi?35minprd&1


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